sick of myself....sometimes you can be such a fool and be so full of yourself you just wanna punch yourself in the face rememberign what you were..........
on a happy note..the new choco swirl frappe at barista is awesome...and ya their wifi is working now..so thats awesome
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Saturday, November 24, 2007
Thursday, November 15, 2007
tick-tick-tock away...
11-55 PM, 16tth November 1987.
Two people had entered a bet. One of them of course won it. Her son lost by 5 minutes.
The bet of course was about my birth, whether id be born on the 16th or the 17th and dad lost to dadi by just a few minutes.
So im turning 20 at 12 tonigh...old
My friend Yudhan it seems has nothing owrthwhile to do in life as for the last two or three weeks he has taken it upon himself to keep reminding me that the teen years of my life are now behind me....
And he continues to tease me about related stuff till the 11th hour.
Anyway, I do look back at my life and really ive experienced so much in m life already that many 30 year olds probbably would miss out on.
I fell in love,
I had gang battles
I was in soem serious fights,
I was 'part' of more than one band.
I had the most unique character i ever knew.
I wrote some rare good stuff now and then..
I got thrown out of more than two eating joints..
I became the headboy of my school(hEy...'twas a big deal for me ok...)
I kidnapped a girl on legal terms...
I broke into a house..
I shoplifted..
Learnt how to evade taxes..
Leaked an examination paper...
Almost got kicked out of school for kicking my principal on the ass...
and so on and forth are many things...
but listening to sad sad music as i am right now i soemhow feel a sense of foreboding as B-Day approaches....
there so much i missed out on..normal stuff...that i can never do again...
special stuff you would do as a teenager....i coud still do any of hte given thingsb ut doing them as a teenager was the big thing.....
I never had a girlfriend as a teen...
I was never in an actual relationship that was worth anything...
I never had my first kiss,
I never topped any big exam or had an exceptional academic result anywhere...
I never bought a diamond for my mom
I never finished a single story i set out to write...
I never finished a song i started writing
I never learnt to play the guitar properly
I never actually played a song for anyone
I never finished any of my 'big projects'
I never went to an actual big rock concert
I never even proposed to anyone
I never got completely drunk and reckless
I never went on a date
I.........................
Bapre...sali list khatam hi nahi hoti hai.....
anyway......Im thankfull for the life I had....as nikki said...ive seen more in life than most teenagers would have in theirs and in my own weird way im thankfull for that...thank you god for the life you gave me...thanks mom n dad for being such awesome parents...thanks to all my friends, pals n buddies ofr being htere for me and havin all the fun we ever had..
thanks to all the musicians i ever heaqrd for bein true and makin music that touches the soul and the truth....beauty
thanks to all those people who ever even took out a minute to wish me
thanks to all the critics who blasted away my writin works...for lookin at my amaeture work and not tellin my how badly i suck or for telling me how badly i DO suck.....it was nice of you to care to read it....im reallythankfull to all of you
thanks to all myschools for makiing me who i am today
thanks to jayati for changing my lifes direction..even if mostly it was for the worse..but im al ot free'er now and i feel much better....
thanks to every single person who ever helped me or made me feel good about naything...thanks to all you people......
thanks
Two people had entered a bet. One of them of course won it. Her son lost by 5 minutes.
The bet of course was about my birth, whether id be born on the 16th or the 17th and dad lost to dadi by just a few minutes.
So im turning 20 at 12 tonigh...old
My friend Yudhan it seems has nothing owrthwhile to do in life as for the last two or three weeks he has taken it upon himself to keep reminding me that the teen years of my life are now behind me....
And he continues to tease me about related stuff till the 11th hour.
Anyway, I do look back at my life and really ive experienced so much in m life already that many 30 year olds probbably would miss out on.
I fell in love,
I had gang battles
I was in soem serious fights,
I was 'part' of more than one band.
I had the most unique character i ever knew.
I wrote some rare good stuff now and then..
I got thrown out of more than two eating joints..
I became the headboy of my school(hEy...'twas a big deal for me ok...)
I kidnapped a girl on legal terms...
I broke into a house..
I shoplifted..
Learnt how to evade taxes..
Leaked an examination paper...
Almost got kicked out of school for kicking my principal on the ass...
and so on and forth are many things...
but listening to sad sad music as i am right now i soemhow feel a sense of foreboding as B-Day approaches....
there so much i missed out on..normal stuff...that i can never do again...
special stuff you would do as a teenager....i coud still do any of hte given thingsb ut doing them as a teenager was the big thing.....
I never had a girlfriend as a teen...
I was never in an actual relationship that was worth anything...
I never had my first kiss,
I never topped any big exam or had an exceptional academic result anywhere...
I never bought a diamond for my mom
I never finished a single story i set out to write...
I never finished a song i started writing
I never learnt to play the guitar properly
I never actually played a song for anyone
I never finished any of my 'big projects'
I never went to an actual big rock concert
I never even proposed to anyone
I never got completely drunk and reckless
I never went on a date
I.........................
Bapre...sali list khatam hi nahi hoti hai.....
anyway......Im thankfull for the life I had....as nikki said...ive seen more in life than most teenagers would have in theirs and in my own weird way im thankfull for that...thank you god for the life you gave me...thanks mom n dad for being such awesome parents...thanks to all my friends, pals n buddies ofr being htere for me and havin all the fun we ever had..
thanks to all the musicians i ever heaqrd for bein true and makin music that touches the soul and the truth....beauty
thanks to all those people who ever even took out a minute to wish me
thanks to all the critics who blasted away my writin works...for lookin at my amaeture work and not tellin my how badly i suck or for telling me how badly i DO suck.....it was nice of you to care to read it....im reallythankfull to all of you
thanks to all myschools for makiing me who i am today
thanks to jayati for changing my lifes direction..even if mostly it was for the worse..but im al ot free'er now and i feel much better....
thanks to every single person who ever helped me or made me feel good about naything...thanks to all you people......
thanks
Saturday, October 27, 2007
So here comes my first post on............MUSIC!!!!!!!!
Right now im listening to a Queen cover by Yngwie Malmstein - Keep Yourself Alive.
BUt this post is about........METALLICA.
Most people would call them sell outs after their Black Album but I tend to disagree. The band created 4 of the best Thrash Metal albums ever in the period of less than a decade. Thesecontained great epics like Master of Puppets, Fade to Black and One. They also had fast thrashing songs that could cut through the silence of my room like a razor..Seek and Destroy, Ride The Lightning or ell Tolls and Creeping Death.
I cant actually say much that hasnt already been said about these albums....there are those who give all the credit to their being young and powerfull(thus implying that now they arent), there are those who consider the real reason of their producing such monster greatness to only Cliff Burton(to them id say....LOOK AT AND JUSTICE FOR ALL...no problems with cliff..he was a great musician...undoubtedly and pretty much defined the music of the band to a large extent...but dont diss the other guys coz they are just as good) and so on and forth.....reasons abound.
My statement is that metallica never really destroyed their musical genius...Black album was a pretty radio friendly album...so many hardcore fans hate it...but maybe we shouldnt blame Metallica for 'selling out' they made music under a new producer and they made soemthing slightly different form whathtey used to..and it was a runaway hit!!!! Black album had the typical attributes that some people carectorize with sell out mania....catchy riffs...videos and nothing truly epic or long lasting. Well the bands music did change.. you cant expect them to keep on having the worlds best songs forever....
Then came Load and reload....here the bands direction changed..these werent true thrash albums...but is that supposed to be a bad thing...they went alternative to an extent...they changed the music they played but they still played it like metallica...a step above everyone else.
Why does everyone hate that fact that metallica changed their music..i mean ifi was playing one sub genre(or genre) of music for over a decade and then decided I want a change then its understandable..the songs again werent Awesome but they were good..the criticism they got was a result of the fame they had.....the stature they had received....its natural..but uncalled for.
S&M was and is according to me one ofthe best innovations possible...playing Hardcore metal along with Classical Musicians is a daunting task and it provided us with another new form of collaboration of the music we always loved with another aspect of music that most of us were ignorant of. It was a great concert and one of metallica's best live performances ever(maybe second only to the Cliff Burton vids ive seen and Binge and Purge Seattle).
Saint anger had some good lyrics but what mainly lacked was production...on the attempt for going Raw they ended up going too raw..the sound sucked...we know the solo's were missing but to be honest i never noticed that till i read it somewhere...honestly..
the riffs were new and great and they sounded good when heard on live vids...metallica still has a lot of the power they once had...
they might not headbanging as much anymore but they still command the stage once theyre on it....they till play awesomely..james voice has changed from a shriekin banshee to a roaring lion post RTL.
Metallica is a band ie always loved and i always will....even if they coome up with a trash album this time..ill be let down..be angry at them..but still love them...so heres a slaute to the four horsemen...no matter who is in the band..its always acted as a unit...no one is great..they all are greats!!!
Right now im listening to a Queen cover by Yngwie Malmstein - Keep Yourself Alive.
BUt this post is about........METALLICA.
Most people would call them sell outs after their Black Album but I tend to disagree. The band created 4 of the best Thrash Metal albums ever in the period of less than a decade. Thesecontained great epics like Master of Puppets, Fade to Black and One. They also had fast thrashing songs that could cut through the silence of my room like a razor..Seek and Destroy, Ride The Lightning or ell Tolls and Creeping Death.
I cant actually say much that hasnt already been said about these albums....there are those who give all the credit to their being young and powerfull(thus implying that now they arent), there are those who consider the real reason of their producing such monster greatness to only Cliff Burton(to them id say....LOOK AT AND JUSTICE FOR ALL...no problems with cliff..he was a great musician...undoubtedly and pretty much defined the music of the band to a large extent...but dont diss the other guys coz they are just as good) and so on and forth.....reasons abound.
My statement is that metallica never really destroyed their musical genius...Black album was a pretty radio friendly album...so many hardcore fans hate it...but maybe we shouldnt blame Metallica for 'selling out' they made music under a new producer and they made soemthing slightly different form whathtey used to..and it was a runaway hit!!!! Black album had the typical attributes that some people carectorize with sell out mania....catchy riffs...videos and nothing truly epic or long lasting. Well the bands music did change.. you cant expect them to keep on having the worlds best songs forever....
Then came Load and reload....here the bands direction changed..these werent true thrash albums...but is that supposed to be a bad thing...they went alternative to an extent...they changed the music they played but they still played it like metallica...a step above everyone else.
Why does everyone hate that fact that metallica changed their music..i mean ifi was playing one sub genre(or genre) of music for over a decade and then decided I want a change then its understandable..the songs again werent Awesome but they were good..the criticism they got was a result of the fame they had.....the stature they had received....its natural..but uncalled for.
S&M was and is according to me one ofthe best innovations possible...playing Hardcore metal along with Classical Musicians is a daunting task and it provided us with another new form of collaboration of the music we always loved with another aspect of music that most of us were ignorant of. It was a great concert and one of metallica's best live performances ever(maybe second only to the Cliff Burton vids ive seen and Binge and Purge Seattle).
Saint anger had some good lyrics but what mainly lacked was production...on the attempt for going Raw they ended up going too raw..the sound sucked...we know the solo's were missing but to be honest i never noticed that till i read it somewhere...honestly..
the riffs were new and great and they sounded good when heard on live vids...metallica still has a lot of the power they once had...
they might not headbanging as much anymore but they still command the stage once theyre on it....they till play awesomely..james voice has changed from a shriekin banshee to a roaring lion post RTL.
Metallica is a band ie always loved and i always will....even if they coome up with a trash album this time..ill be let down..be angry at them..but still love them...so heres a slaute to the four horsemen...no matter who is in the band..its always acted as a unit...no one is great..they all are greats!!!
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
umm
since no one reads this blog just like all the others....i feel safe posting this here.
i hope its not braggin or anythin..but jsut felt so good after reading a letter a friedn wrote to me..while she was reading one of my blogs...i just cant help but smile.....love you nikki
since no one reads this blog just like all the others....i feel safe posting this here.
i hope its not braggin or anythin..but jsut felt so good after reading a letter a friedn wrote to me..while she was reading one of my blogs...i just cant help but smile.....love you nikki
well write now m in college
was readin ur blogs
wanna say tht m in love wid the way u write things
see i donno wat m feelin write now but i donno y m realisin one thing again n again.......u r soo special to me
these days though i m goin thru so called failures......despair n tears n watever .....but u know wat....u ppl make me feel so lucky
u all have told me tht even i mean sth to u.......
n esp u....i mean at times u make me feel so calm.....donno how u do tht but yeah it really does happen.......m lucky to have friends like u
ppl who make me complete n ppl who make me feel blessed
n yeah ppl who make me understand n realise the strength tht lies within my soul n heart
thanks for bein sooooooooo nice
thx for bein my best best best friend
n thx for everything else
but more than ne other thing on this planet....i'd jus say
THANKS FOR WRITING
chalo me leavin...with one special wish in my heart
one day......u'll be the happiest man on the earth......i want u to be veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy happy......yeah seriously very happy.......
n plsssssssssssssssssssssssss author zaroor banna ....i'll read every single thing u write....now n forever.....
with love
nikki
Monday, August 6, 2007
Ass Kickin......................the other way around
Well....got my Crimno paper tomorrow,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
But then I thought,,what the heck,lets go blog a little. I normally only write when the urge grabs me. But this blog doesn't have any hope of any literary merit so it doesnt matter what i write here.
So well I thought about lotsa stuff I could write about but nothing really felt right. So im sitting here,aimlessly right now with no ideas in my mind.
And then i suddenly remmembered the heading i had given to this article,,ASS KICKIN.
And it all came back ...
So now we go more than one year back to sometime in may of 2006.
This homo-sAPIEN by the name of Ankit Lal has just passed outta his 12th .. sure to get bad marks...in his 12th board,,,desperately trying to mess up his engineering exams(it came naturally..i didnt really have to try)
Im sitting in the CCD at Bittan market. Back then there was jsut one ,now there are three of them in Bhopal. Around me are a few more infamous Campionites, one of whom is the onbly guy i consider to be a bigger asshole than me,Amol. He was My House Prefect, the highest guy after my post in Campion.
So well we had a duty of carrying on the Campion goofiness, which we eventually did.
Headcount- Moi,Amol,10 more campionites(our batch n junior).
Location-CCD
Time-Approx 18:00 Hours
Event-First ever 'rock performance' at CCD(start of an era in bhopal) by Inferno
Ahh...now htat we're all in on the backgroound lets jump right back into the action.
THE SHOW JSUT DIDNT START. we waited for 2 hours(no we didnt order anything) and still the show wasnt starting.
So well..we sang to pass our time.
And which song do we choose...
BC SUTTA..
so a dozen odd people singing BC SUTTA to every guys delight and every girls displeasure(WOO HOO!!!)
After that we came up with.............BABA BLACK SHEEP
Soon to be followed by th Bhojpuri style TUM TO THAIRE PARDESI,SATH KYA NIBHAOGE(total bhangi style)
our return to childhood again with.....................TWINKLE TWINKLE LITTLE STAR
On popular demand we sang BC SUTTA again but htis time the dear old CCD mangement was getting edgy.
and the last song of the night....Humpty Dumpty.
But we never really got around to finishing it.
the manger comes up and this is the conversation that follows.........
Angry Bulging-Eye Manager - Sir,Please leave.
Me-uhh...???
ABEM-LEave sir,your creating a nuisance. (pauses for a while) But pay your bill first.
Me-Bill..??? We nver ordereed anything..(notices burger and empty cafechino glasses) oh..when did we order that..>????
Amol-Abey..paise kiske pas hain..mere pas to chillad hai....
Me-Bill kitna hua bhaiya(pleasing tone)...???
ABEM-Rs.159/-
Me-(gulp!)
Amol-(whispering to me) Bol,bhag le kya!?
Me-(take out a Rs. 100/- note) abey sab paise do!!
We manage to get 159 bucks in coins. I go up to th manager and hand over the 100 plus 59 in coins.
ABEM-(really angry) GET OUT OF HERE!!
Amol-arey bhaiya...thand rakho(goes up to manager)
Then simultaneously,,as if reading each others mind..
Both amol and i..reach up to the manger and the head waiter.
Amol is IN the managers face..so close he could smell his stale breath and im jsut as close to the waiter as i can get wihtout giving him lip-service.
WE reach closer to the two monsters
And give them a Hug.
They kick us out.
End of 'ass kicking' part 1.
We later got thrown outta CCD even before I could manage to get in and once out of Barista.
and oh Ya, I also ended up breaking the glass door of ABH.
Well,tahts for another day.
But then I thought,,what the heck,lets go blog a little. I normally only write when the urge grabs me. But this blog doesn't have any hope of any literary merit so it doesnt matter what i write here.
So well I thought about lotsa stuff I could write about but nothing really felt right. So im sitting here,aimlessly right now with no ideas in my mind.
And then i suddenly remmembered the heading i had given to this article,,ASS KICKIN.
And it all came back ...
So now we go more than one year back to sometime in may of 2006.
This homo-sAPIEN by the name of Ankit Lal has just passed outta his 12th .. sure to get bad marks...in his 12th board,,,desperately trying to mess up his engineering exams(it came naturally..i didnt really have to try)
Im sitting in the CCD at Bittan market. Back then there was jsut one ,now there are three of them in Bhopal. Around me are a few more infamous Campionites, one of whom is the onbly guy i consider to be a bigger asshole than me,Amol. He was My House Prefect, the highest guy after my post in Campion.
So well we had a duty of carrying on the Campion goofiness, which we eventually did.
Headcount- Moi,Amol,10 more campionites(our batch n junior).
Location-CCD
Time-Approx 18:00 Hours
Event-First ever 'rock performance' at CCD(start of an era in bhopal) by Inferno
Ahh...now htat we're all in on the backgroound lets jump right back into the action.
THE SHOW JSUT DIDNT START. we waited for 2 hours(no we didnt order anything) and still the show wasnt starting.
So well..we sang to pass our time.
And which song do we choose...
BC SUTTA..
so a dozen odd people singing BC SUTTA to every guys delight and every girls displeasure(WOO HOO!!!)
After that we came up with.............BABA BLACK SHEEP
Soon to be followed by th Bhojpuri style TUM TO THAIRE PARDESI,SATH KYA NIBHAOGE(total bhangi style)
our return to childhood again with.....................TWINKLE TWINKLE LITTLE STAR
On popular demand we sang BC SUTTA again but htis time the dear old CCD mangement was getting edgy.
and the last song of the night....Humpty Dumpty.
But we never really got around to finishing it.
the manger comes up and this is the conversation that follows.........
Angry Bulging-Eye Manager - Sir,Please leave.
Me-uhh...???
ABEM-LEave sir,your creating a nuisance. (pauses for a while) But pay your bill first.
Me-Bill..??? We nver ordereed anything..(notices burger and empty cafechino glasses) oh..when did we order that..>????
Amol-Abey..paise kiske pas hain..mere pas to chillad hai....
Me-Bill kitna hua bhaiya(pleasing tone)...???
ABEM-Rs.159/-
Me-(gulp!)
Amol-(whispering to me) Bol,bhag le kya!?
Me-(take out a Rs. 100/- note) abey sab paise do!!
We manage to get 159 bucks in coins. I go up to th manager and hand over the 100 plus 59 in coins.
ABEM-(really angry) GET OUT OF HERE!!
Amol-arey bhaiya...thand rakho(goes up to manager)
Then simultaneously,,as if reading each others mind..
Both amol and i..reach up to the manger and the head waiter.
Amol is IN the managers face..so close he could smell his stale breath and im jsut as close to the waiter as i can get wihtout giving him lip-service.
WE reach closer to the two monsters
And give them a Hug.
They kick us out.
End of 'ass kicking' part 1.
We later got thrown outta CCD even before I could manage to get in and once out of Barista.
and oh Ya, I also ended up breaking the glass door of ABH.
Well,tahts for another day.
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