ok... I'm frustrated ... plain simple frustrated..
i wanna curse .. shout scream .. nehitng to get rid of this frustration ..

and the reasons quite simple .....

my lifes not as adventurous or ... out of context as id hoped it would be ... am i getting odl already .... NO nO NO NON
i wanna die young man ...(well not really)


my anger roots in the hopelessness of the situation i find myself in ... its like im letting mysurroundings bog me down ....
i didnt intern coz i wanted to enjoy .. n i still like the idea ... im glad i took that decision ...BUT

big BUT

i didnt go on a single trip the whole two months .......(you cant count indore as a trip..its next doors)
i didnt record a single song ... i didnt write a single chapter .. or even one usefull story ...
dint read anything pathbreaking ......and very soon college starts ....

and the outlet for this frustration is thanks ot me checking out vaibhav bhai's album ..so many pics of places theyve been to .. nd i felt so jealous ...him .. namchor n mudit bhaiya ....i feel jealous ...

i wann go those palces .. do things like them .. be stupid n fun .... but i have no one to do them with ... NO ONE!!!!!

its no fun going alone .... i will do that one day .... but when i ahve no other option ....

maybe i dont have any right now ...

so i have no one to go to even pachmadi with ...forget goa or shimla or nehting really worthwhile ... nishants going to port blair with his friends ... PORT BLAIR ./.... we havent bee ntehre in over a decade ....

the people im with at coll ... forget them ... if i can get more than one of them to go to indore its an achievement ... only shubhams good enough for soemhting liek that .... no one else ...

school pals cant make it to bhopal at the same time coz of coll breaks timings ....amol was here in april may ..i was free in may june ... yudhan has end june and VK only for july and PG is coming in august .... wtf

its enough to make me scream ... nd th eagles are singing in the background ... GET OVER IT ... ALL THE BITCHING MOANING AND FITS .... GET OVER IT ...  GET OVER IT ... GET OVER IT (goood solo) ... .get over it ........................................................... (get over it) .....